Saturday, June 02, 2007

I have been hesitating to write and ask for your prayers for myself. I just didn't want to stir up an panic or worry... But tonight I need your prayers. I am having some funky things going on physically that are really just getting on my nerves- quite literally. My head has been really dizzy- I guess that's the way to describe it. Actually, it feels a little like someone has taken off the top of my skull and stuck their hand inside and is wiggling their fingers around inside my brain. That sounds a lot like a Jonathan explanation... he always has very descriptive ways of stating things. Its not really painful just annoying.

The part that is frustrating me is that it is really making it hard for me to handle noise... I am trying so hard to be patient and loving with my children. I have prayed so hard that God will make me into a loving patient mother who reflects Christ. But their voices are echoing off the inside of my head. I don't really know how to explain what is going on but its a little freaky and very frustrating. It is affecting my ability to do everything I need to do.

I have been to the Dr. We did lots of blood tests. My blood sugar keeps dropping really low so that's one of the things we are checking into. When I get back from Colorado I am going to go in and have an MRI of my brain and neck, another test to look at the vessels around my brain (since there is some history of strokes etc in my family) and an echo of my heart. All this sounds quite extensive and probably makes it sound worse then it is. I am fine... I just need to make sure there isn't something more than sleep deprivation going on. I have too many little ones who need me!!!

Mainly I am praying not just for the tests to be all normal but for God to just remove whatever it is that is causing me to feel this way. Please pray for me to be able to glorify God in my actions and love towards my children despite feeling like my head is going to explode. Also, please pray for Jonathan as well... his headaches seem worse. I am holding my breath until the next MRI... pray that if there is something concerning going on that God will reveal it to us in an obvious way.

Thank you friends for your faithful prayers and love.


Peach said...

Oh Sweetie!

I will be praying diligently, especially as you must wait until after your trip. Praying for that, too. Keep us posted.

Sending love and a quiet hug . . .

Sharon said...

I came to your site "randomly" and my heart cried with yours. I do not know in full the trials you have and continue to go through, I can only relate in part-a small part. But my prayers are with you my dear sister in Christ.

Tina said...

I also came to your site randomly through the CWO blogroll. My heart was so moved as I read some of your entries. I am praying for you.

Heidi said...

I'm praying for you my sweet cousin. I love you!