Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Exciting Things are Happening!!!

The past few weeks have been packed full. The exciting thing is that they have been filled up with time doing something I love so much. God has given me the desire of my heart and has granted a part of one of my dreams to me. Recently, the Lord has brought Shawn and I together with friends, Jeremy and Natalee, to create a photography business called Only You Photography.

Jeremy already had the name, the studio, and the beginnings of a successful business. I had the desire and the passion but needed a business partner. We have all been in awe as we have watched the Lord bring all the details together. Jeremy and I have the same passion and vision. We both have a heart to glorify God in our business. We long to be able to use photography and a portion of our profits to minister to others in the various ways God has placed on our hearts.

Tonight, after many nights of working until 2am, we finally got to announce our company and the web page. I am so excited to see it official!!! If you are on facebook, we would love for you to join our Only You Photography fan page. Please visit us at Only You Photography for more examples of our work. If you live in the Colorado Springs area we would love the opportunity to serve you.

Thursday, May 06, 2010

Its been a rough week. Jon is raging again almost daily. No matter how strong I am, no matter how much I prepare for these episodes they still manage to wear me down. After a few days, I feel very fragile. It leaves me often questioning and wondering why.Honestly, it leaves me longing for a different life.

It wouldn't be so bad if it was just Jon and I. But there are many other lives involved. Many other hearts that are also worn down and wounded. As the sadness descends and settles into my very bones, the heavy weight of how this life affects everyone else threatens to suffocate me. I know that God is in control, I know that he is working even this out for good. But sometimes knowing it is barely enough to carry me through to the next moment. Sometimes the daily part of dealing with him and his illness makes it nearly impossible to deal with anything else...like making meals, cleaning, attending to the many needs of my other children.

The hope that still remains is this...this cycle will not last forever. The wounds oozing in my heart will eventually heal. The day is coming when the Lover of my Soul will come and carry me away forever from this painful world. In that moment he will wipe away my tears. He will make this all worth it. That is the one thing I am holding onto...soon and very soon He is coming.