Saturday, January 31, 2009

I am sorry for the late update on Jonathan. I could not access this page at the hospital so I was only updating Facebook. He is doing wonderfully. You can not even tell the child has had surgery. And he loves showing off his port!
I will update more later on other things. I have to get my house back in order!!!!

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Jonathan is scheduled to have sinus surgery @ 7 am Wednesday morning. They will also be removing his port. Please pray for everything to go smoothly and for a quick recovery. Pray that this surgery will be successful and there will be some relief from all the mood swings and irritability. We all need a break!

Monday, January 19, 2009

Thank you for your prayers today for my friend. She has made it through surgery. The drs were able to remove the entire tumor. I am hoping to hear more soon. Please keep praying for a full recovery.
Thank you all for your prayers for Cindy. Please keep praying for her. She goes in for surgery tomorrow at 10am. Pray specifically that she will have a full recovery with no spinal damage. There is a chance that the tumor itself has caused nerve damage and the numbness and difficulty walking could remain after surgery. Pray for God to use this situation in a mighty way. Pray that the tumor is not wrapped up in of the nerves. Pray the patch the dr uses to close up the spinal cord will not leak and that she will not have a spinal headache.
Thank you friends for your faithfulness to pray.
I love you all.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Urgent Prayer Request!!!!

Please pray diligently for my friend, Cindy, tonight and in the coming days. She is one of the moms who I teach with at co-op. We have become pretty close. I received an email today from her that has left me on my knees crying out to the Lord for his intervention and healing.

She had begun having numbness in her legs. Since then it has progressed to numb from the ribs down. Apparently she is in the hospital unable to walk right at all. So far the doctors have found 2 spots in her brain and a large spinal tumor. They are going to do surgery on Monday to remove the tumor. As you can imagine, she is scared but knows Jesus is holding her.

Pray for her family. She has several grown children and a little boy in 2nd grade who is one of Jon's best friends. Pray for God to give her peace regarding all the decisions.

Thank you friends for being so faithful.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Out with the with the new:
Strange things are happening around here.

The Lord is up to something and His ways are not my ways. But His ways are good. That I do know. I am so thankful that things are not up to me. Its a crazy wild adventure that one signs up for when they place their heart into the hands of Almighty God. He blows my mind.

My brain is on overload. My heart is bursting at the seams. I have found my lips overflowing with silent prayers. My hand is gripping the Father's hand. I have no idea where this is all going but I know who is leading. So I am safe. I am free. I am secure. I know who holds my hand.

So what's going on? I really don't know. I know that my prayers have been answered. I know that God is in the process of transforming me. He is transforming my husband. My children are changing. I really didn't expect such a fast response to our prayers. I really thought we would continue down the path of despair and failure. It was quite hopeless in my view.

But, through very unlikely and hard to believe circumstances, God is reaching into our lives and touching them. He is setting us free. He is breathing his life into our hearts again. This process of being made a live again hurts. It is easier to remain dead emotionally. But I want to breathe. I want to live. In the midst of this new life, Satan tries to destroy what God begins. Floods of memories, past faults, past failures, broken dreams, unfulfilled longings threaten to drown me.

The Lord blew me away these past couple of weeks in how he has begun setting me free from the raging in my head and hurt. He used some people who I never would have though possible. I am not going to go in to great detail. But I will share that God answered more prayers than one. We have been praying for a church. We have desperately needed a church. We have been so hesitant to step out and find one. At the same time I have been praying for healing in my husband's heart and that he would find courage to lead us. Well, 2 weeks ago we woke up 30 minutes before we would need to leave to go to church. We both looked at each other and debated about church. We laid there a little longer. Prompted that we needed to go, we got up and had all the kids showered and ready and in the car in record time. It had snowed the night before- so the fact that we even went was totally God. The church we went to was so totally not what I would have chosen... I had been resistant because of the church it was. And unfortunately I have a lot of influence over we go or not. Shortly after we arrived, we were reunited with an old friend who God used to speak His truth powerfully into my heart to begin the healing process.
Only God could orchestrate such a day. Even down to the detail of someone from my past being used by God to speak truth into my life and set me free from the lies I believed.

We have prayed for friends. I have especially prayed for God to provide a friend for my husband. We both have had the blessing of meeting with accountability partners and mentors in the past. This type of relationship is desire we both have deeply. This past week, Shawn got to reconnect with a friend. Where this friendship goes, I don't know but it is a start.

Another thing I have been praying and struggling with has been the kids and school. I just don't know what the right choice is. Well, through the teaching that first Sunday, I finally felt peace over the decisions we have to make. The peace over trusting my husband to lead, over realizing that this decision is not a set in stone, life or death decision. Oh there is so much more than even that... so many ways that I can feel God changing me. Anyway, I have stopped fighting for my way. I am trusting God to open the doors that are right or close the ones that are not. So, we have applied for three different charter schools. They will have a lottery to choose who is attending the schools in the next couple of weeks. If the kids get accepted they will go to school next year. If they don't then I will continue to teach them at home. This is so huge for me to let go of.

There is so much more that I could share. I am still trying to process it all. I will share more later on this topic. Thank you all as you continue to pray for me and our family!