Thursday, May 29, 2008

"Mommy, pray that Jesus will come soon and take us to heaven. " Tonight when I was tucking my children into bed and praying for them, Jason asked me to pray this. I must say that this has been my diligent prayer these past few weeks. I don't know about you, friends, but I am weary and my heart longs to be in the presence of my Savior. I am so desperate to feel his arms around me. I am so anxious to be able to breathe again and know that we made it! I am definately looking forward to never shedding another tear, never feeling fear or anxiety again, never feeling the incredible ache of a broken heart. I can't wait until every child is in the safety of their Maker's presence- protected from illness, danger, death, and pain. I am so ready.

I am sorry I have kind of dropped off the face of the earth (or blog world!!!) lately. I have kind of settled into the "lurker" mode...reading everyones blogs and emails but not finding the motivation to respond. I am sorry...that makes me quiet the selfish blogger! Its just been a weird few weeks...I liken it to feeling like I am on vacation and I am keeping a low profile...we have not had any drs appts in weeks. Everyone has been well. I don't have a vehicle most days so we are just hanging out at home cleaning, creating, and playing. I am so needing to get in gear!

We finally think we have found a church that we may start attending more reguarly. This has been a struggle for us. We miss terribly the church family we were only just begining to get to know in Tennessee. Our hearts long for that connection as well as the teaching...Thank God for internet...I am so happy to still be fed by the pastors at Fellowship Bible Church! When we went to this new church, The Underground Church, we felt very welcomed. It was their dedication service for the new beginning the church was embarking on so we didn't get a really good idea of how they teach there. But we were pleased with what we did see. So far it is the closest to feeling like home. In the past it didn't really matter to me where the church was geographically located...but for some reason it is really on my heart to go to church in our community. This church is literally within walking distance. I really believe that God put us in this neighboorhood to be a light for him. I am so excited to share that my new neighbor who moved in after us told me today that she will go to church with us when she gets back from vacation! Oh please pray for her and her family. Pray for their salvation.

I want to share with you how incredible it has been to be here in Colorado and to know that we are where God wants us. This has been so amazing to me. There are so many little ways that I can see God healing our hearts and beginning to set us on the path he wants us to go. Shawn and I have felt so alone for so long. God alone really knows the extent of the pain in this area. In the past week alone we have had dinner with another family 4 days!!!! Can you believe it? I am just totally at a loss when it comes to what to do when people actually want to spend time with you. My children are benefitting greatly from having Shawn's parents around to spend so much time with. This family just enjoys spending time together. Its is taking time for me to get to used to that's for sure...On Thursday last week Shawn's mom came and got Jon for the afternoon. Then his sister took the boys to hockey practice with her so they could watch their cousin. So Shawn, the girls and I went shopping and out to dinner. Then on Friday Jason, Josh, and Britt all went to Shawn's parents house for the afternoon. We met up with them that evening at Shawn's sisters for dinner and then all of us went to the hockey game. Then Saturday we had dinner with my best friend Gretchen and her family. On Sunday we went to Shawn's boss' house for a BBQ with some of the people Shawn works with. That evening after the BBQ I got to go spend a quiet evening with Mya watching Gretchen's girls so they could have a date night. Then on Monday she came and kept my kids so Shawn and I could have a date night...we chose to have dinner with his parents! It was wonderful!!!! I think I can get used to this!!!!

This summer the kids and I are going to read Little House on the Prarie and along with Gretchen's girls rediscover the "old" way of life. We are very excited. Last week they all made homemade butter and then enjoyed it on biscuits with homemade apple butter! I am not sure yet what we are going to do next. Maybe some gardening and canning. I think I am finally going to overcome my pressure cooking fears and try to can that way. Stay tuned for pictures!!!!

I better go and get to bed... Gretchen and I are going to get an early start tomorrow on finishing the kids beds. I have been sanding them down and painting them. We are going to actually build onto Brittney's so it will look like a fancy girls bed instead of just a standard bunk bed! I am very happy to finally be getting their rooms unpacked and decorated!


Anonymous said...

oh sis im so happy for you!i know i miss being able to go to you and mirandas house,just to get away.ive been so homesick lately.i dont know if its bc of steve getting ready to go to iraq,or pregnancy related,but i just cant shake the need to be with you guys!oh but im so happy for you and your family!i know my inlaws always make me feel like that,just loving to be together!(not that mom and dad dont,)and now that you and gretchen are closer to eachother,thats so wonderful.i know im really looking forward to tristan comming tro stay with me!
i feel you on the first part as well.not to have to feel pain,see your children in pain,things like wonderful weill that be!i cant wait for mavan to be able to talk to me,share his fears in a way that i understand,some days its not so bad,others i just wish i could really know whats goin on with him instead of doing detective work!
ok,well i should have emailed you!lol.i love you and i'll call this weekend!

Tina said...

IT was good to hear from you Kelly. I am so with you on wanting to go to heaven.
Praying for your neighbors right now. Sounds like God is really blessing you there and I rejoice in that!!

REALLY cool about the homemade butter, etc. I would love to do stuff like that and long for a simpler life, but don't know if I will ever try it....

Pam said...

So good to "hear" a smile in your heart, dear Kelly.

I've been longing for heaven more recently as well and can totally relate to the aloneness you described.

So thrilled that God is filling you up with the relationships and fellowship of others close to you.

Can't wait to see photos of your decorating.

I have a copy of Prairie Primer, the homeschooling unit study using the Little House books, would you like me to send it to you? I'll need your new snail mail address. : )

Tennessee Mama Duck said...

Kelly, I'm so glad you are getting settled in and it is going well. And no doctor's appointments for 2 weeks!? I understand the reason to rejoice for that!

God definitely has a plan for your family there. I look forward to seeing it (or at least hearing about it) lived out.